Starting over

Listening now….

What happens if you want to start over?

My mind is telling me to take a chance, go back to school. I started, that’s a step. [Goals, with gratitude: part 2]

But i want more- I want to dedicate my time to this.

You know those people who have known they have wanted to be a doctor, a veterinarian, whatever it may be, since they were a little kid? As long as they can remember.

That was never me.

Figuring out what I want to do with my life has been a roller coaster for me, it was never straight forward and is still not. My path has alternate routes I can take- and sudden unpredictable sharp turns that take my mind on a spin daily.

I started out at my community college when I was 18, studying human services. My biological father had bipolar disorder that went untreated and he self medicated, resulting in my sister and I losing out on the opportunity to know who he was- and eventually lose him altogether. This, combined with my insatiable desire to watch as many episodes of Intervention as possible, I thought I wanted to be an addiction counselor. I thought maybe I can help others who are trying to help their family members not go down the same spiral-and I think in a way I wanted to make Kevin proud, too.

My crooked path went a little something like this:

Human services-Early childhood education-Communication disorders-finished off with sociology because I enjoyed the classes, they were easy, and I wanted to finish my degree and get something.

I think I felt this feeling or urgency, I was 18, everyone was in college, I needed to get a degree. No regrets that I did- I just wish I took more time to sit down and think-

What do I really enjoy? What makes me excited about life and what am I good at?

Via

Right now, I work as a case manager in a nonprofit organization. I have learned so much there and I am good at my job. Not just about the job, but about myself too. I have realized something-

I have a tendency to get frustrated with those who don’t help themselves. And although I get my point across, do what I need to do, and enjoy it a lot of the time,[Very thankful to have a job I like]- People are just not my forte.

Some people just have that knack for people and saying the right things to get them to open up, sometimes I can succeed at this-but it’s something I work on a lot, because it doesn’t come natural to me like to some others. But these skills, if you can build upon them, you can and will take them everywhere with you.

Via:

It’s time for me to explore the things I love and I am good at- I would love to do a double major in graphic design and veterinary tech-I took a computer graphics class last winter and really enjoyed it and felt good at what I was doing. I am in a vet tech class right now and feel excited in the class, and find everything I am learning about to be so interesting. I don’t really remember feeling this excited when I was in school before!

By the way, Alice always had it right.